I’m having one of those days where I feel like a complete fraud. It’s a feeling many get, but I believe few will openly admit it. Well, that’s what my therapist told me anyway. No amount of praise, recognition, or accomplishment can wipe away the feeling that you’re scamming everybody you meet.
As a matter of fact, praise and recognition can make the feeling worse. You begin to feel as if you’ve tricked even more people into thinking you know what you’re talking about. You can be an expert in your field and still get this feeling.
Objectively I know that what I’m feeling is complete bullshit. Excuse me for tooting my own horn a bit, but I’ve had more than one outlet ask me to write for them over the past few weeks. I know what I do is good, maybe not the absolute best, but I do have a way with words at times.
Even with all this knowledge, I still feel as if someone will find out I’m full of shit and run me off the internet. Ridiculous thought, I know, but it’s there. Maybe one day it’ll go away, maybe it won’t. Either way it’s here now so I need to deal with it any way I can.