I say this to friends and loved ones all the time, but I can’t seem to do it myself. Mentally I’m up and down and physically I’m falling apart at the seams. One good tug and I’ll unravel completely. I just need to bite the bullet and go see someone about everything. I’m just scared to do it because I think I’ll end up in a hospital somewhere, and I can’t afford that right now. Not money wise or mentally or logistically.
While I do have “support”, it’s 80 miles one way and 90 miles another way. My mom is disabled so she can’t look after the children for long, That leaves me in a predicament where I’m literally the only one who can handle this. I’m a single mom, the only one who can look after my kids full-time, and to do that, I have to ignore me. That sucks, but I will do it because it’s the only thing I can do.