Today is sad love song day for me. It’s probably because this divorce is finally coming to a close. I’ll have the divorce decree in my hand in the near future and that makes me feel… I don’t know. Part of me feels like I wasted a decade of my life and the other part just feels like this is one chapter of my life closing and the beginning of a new one.
I’m kinda scared about what comes next. The unknown fills me with fear and anticipation in equal measure. I have plans on where I want my life to go next. Very big ones that will take untold amounts of determination, endless reserves of patience, and a fair amount of self-confidence. I am unfortunately lacking in all three at the current moment. Hopefully I’ll find those in time.
Life, so far, has had a way of knocking me on my ass though, so I’m not banking too much on this far-fetched plan of mine. I guess I just have to wait and see what comes next. I can only hope that it’s something good.